Creativity and my struggle with it

I used to think I wasn’t very creative. I always found it odd when people told me I was creative (like when I’d build something out of a random pile of legos). I appreciate the compliment, but didn’t necessarily understand it.

I have always wanted to be creative… Someday I would love to write a book our draw or paint some really cool artwork, or learn how to play an instrument, or something else that’s creative…

It just seems they every time I try I either freeze up or i’m not ever content with my effort so I give up before I even get started… I tell myself “it’s ok, i’m just not the creative type”.

But is that true? Am I really not they creative? What about all those times people have said I was creative? Were they just trying to make me feel good about myself?

Maybe i’m just “accidentally creative” every now and then?

Or maybe I am creative and i’m just self defeating?

I really don’t know the answer, but I hope some day I’ll figure it out…

I wonder if anyone else feels this way…

(disclaimer: I typed this on my phone, so I apologize for any typos, improper auto-corrects, or what have you.)

Happy Fathers Day

Today is fathers day and so far this has been a great one for me. I got to spend some time by myself which is something I don’t get very often. I spent most of my free time just sitting in my minivan thinking…

It’s been quite an interesting journey so far, being a father… I am blessed to have a great wife and two amazing kids. I am also thankful for my family, extended family, and friends who have helped support me/us in one way or another over the years.

I think that of ask the experiences in my life so far, being a father has changed me the most. By the time my kids are my age I imagine I will have changed so much that I could write a book about it, but who would want to read it?

One of the main changes that comes to mind is that I used to never hesitate to share my opinion, but now I tend to keep things to myself. For example, there are many things I’d like to say right now, but I am going to refrain from doing so for now. Why is that the case? Because i’m still growing and changing and in time I will be wiser than I am now which will probably change my opinion again and I will be left thinning of how silly I was to think and say such a foolish thing.

What am I blathering about?

Well, basically i’m trying to say that I hope my son and daughter learn quicker than I did to listen to their parents and not be so darn insistent on doing everything the hard way just because they can…

We all could stand to learn valuable lessons from our elders, if only we would just shut up and listen long enough to learn from their mistakes and benefit from their successes…